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Tuesday, January 25, 2011,2:51 PM
2011's 1st post
it has been more than a year since i blogged!
wow.that's very long~
2010 has been a year of joys and pains. Many things happen. Good things came in the first 6 months and then some unhappiness things came after June.Now that its 2011, a new year, i hope good things come back soon..
We are still together. Sometimes there are quarrels, but there are many happy memories with him. Recently, he declared that we are in an open relationship. Im very saddened by this act. But i know i kind of started it. I said bad things like he's not doing what boyfriends do normally, like carrying my bag. I was angry that he made me wait for 3 hours plus 'cause he did his facial. He said sorry but i was still angry. Now that i recalled what happened, i totally regretted it! i overreacted! oww~ what was i thinking then? he did apologised~
Im bearing my consequences now. that is in an open relationship n not holding hands in public. We'r not exclusive to each other anymore. He can find another girl. :(
I hated the idea of not claiming him as my bf in public. Now we can only be seen as friends by others...i feel his love fading too...
The only thing i can do is to make him happy, so that he remember the happiness we had then.
Wednesday, January 6, 2010,5:22 PM
fear.
yesterday came a shocking news. she is coming back...for a short trip.
what he fear most has happened, n i realised that is oso what i fear.
why is she coming back? the motive is unclear. nobody knows except herself bahh.. haix.
suddenly e fear of losing him becomes stronger. he says he would not see her but i tink if their fate persists, they would still see each other eventually. i don't want to think pessimistically but the case seems to be like this. he had loved her more than anything before. there's really no guarantee if they would rekindle. although he says he would not be with someone who had betrayed him before, i still do not feel secure. what am i thinking? i don't 'own' him at all so what im i scared of losing?! .....
im confused.
maybe im just scared of changes in our 'relationship' if they rekindle.
if....if....
oneday they rekindle, i would wish them good. from the bottom of my heart.
i just wish for him to be happy.
nomatter who's beside him, as long as he's happy, i'll be happy too.
i hope when she comes back, his emotions would not be affected unless it'll do him good.
Tuesday, January 5, 2010,11:19 AM
complicated.
四個月了·
發生很多事情.
我跟他 關系複雜.以前 我很在乎 但 現在 我無所謂.關系是什麼已經不重要了 因為 現在的我很快樂.
我不會問他 我們是什關系.可能有一天 他會主動提出呢?
朋友都說 我很傻.
對不起 使你們擔心 我沒事.
最近 他生病了.我慶倖他給我機會照顧他 因為我知道他本來就是個自己照顧自己的人 如今卻愿意讓我照顧他 是我對他很重要嗎?
我不喜歡他生病.看他生病的模樣 我很難過 想掉眼淚.我要病魔趕快走開 我要看到他健康的模樣。
我越來越愛他了~
愛到無法自拔~
Thursday, September 3, 2009,5:24 PM
The end?
九月三日
分手
我們結束了·
昨天 他打電話來 親口告訴了我：“我們分手。”
我們聊了大概一個半鐘頭·現在 我非常清楚分手的原因了·我會聽你的話 把這當作一堂寶貴的課 不會怪自己·跟你說過的話 是真心話， 答應你的要求 都会守承諾·
我會堅強起來的·我不會再掉眼淚·我不會借酒消愁·我不會餓肚子·
我會變成熟 變獨立 變懂得怎麼關心別人 的女生·
你說 我們還是好朋友·我們還是可以通電話 聊心事·對啊，可是我不知道我幾時才有勇氣這樣做·
從朋友變情人 再從情人變朋友 以前我以為只是偶像劇里的情節 可是卻發生在我身上·
緣分 會再讓我們再次回到以前的關系嗎？
我依然愛著你·
❤
Sunday, August 30, 2009,11:04 AM
崩溃
以为我可以很倔强不让眼泪往下流
可是 我输给了自己。
我哭了
······崩溃了。
独自走过我们曾经去的游乐场 寂寞淹没了我。我不习惯没有你在我身边。回忆不停倒转着~ 眼泪也再落下。
昨天
不知道哭了几次
今天
也开始哭了几次了
眼泪 它不由自主想流下 因为 舍不得 因为 爱你。
现在 我更懂得幸福了 （跟你在一起的时候）
现在 你还爱我吗？
我发现 我真的很爱你！
Tuesday, August 11, 2009,11:36 PM
811
8月11日
特別的日子
我們的三個月紀念日
。
這一天 也是我開學的第一天 所以本來以為我們沒有機會慶祝的。怎麼知道 你竟然假扮別人傳簡
訊給我。收到不明者的簡訊時 我覺得他很無聊 要我猜他是誰。我有點不耐煩了。可是 當我知道是你 我又憤怒 又開心。因為你耍我 我生氣 也因為你特別這樣做是要約我出來 記得是什麼日子 而感到開心。
原本開開心心準備去見你的 但不知為什麼 我卻扳著臉（是你告訴我的）。
是PMS？
你說應該不是 因為這種事情不是第一次發生。我無話可說 因為我不知道我為什麼會這樣。我不
知如何辯解自己的行為。
你生氣了。超級生氣。
我在回宿捨得路上才嘗試想讓你不那麼生氣。你更生氣了。
我也很討厭自己 白癡！
現在 你還在生氣。
我再打給你 看你會接嗎。
Friday, July 31, 2009,2:21 PM
原則
原則 - 守護 或 放棄？
從昨天我就在想這個問題。難しいです。
這麼多年以來 我建立了這個原則。說放棄 會覺得可惜。說守護 卻會使另外一人難受。如果那個人對我不重要的話 我也不會想這個問題。:O
堅持是對的嗎？還是是我自私？
有朋友跟我說 這不是自私 只是男生才會這麼認為。
突然 我想通了。對啊 男生是為了XX我的思緒才那麼說的。但 我也相信他是因為太喜歡我了。這是他親口說的話。我沒懷疑過。所以 我的確有想過放棄原則。可是 我還是選擇守護原則。
如果他是真心喜歡我的 他本當會尊重我的決定。
我知道他會的。
PS 哪一天他終于戰勝了原則也說不定。
こんにちは。 私は miki。 私は 20 歳である。 私はDNを愛するが, 